This is my first entry to the Daily Jagged Pill blog and I thought an introduction would be appropriate. For the most part I consider myself a good person, G-d-fearing, kind to others and fun to be around. However, like most people, I have a dark side. Over the past year or so, I've been having thoughts that I never have had before. It seems the older I get and the more corruption I encounter around me the more I feel like I really just don't want to be here anymore.

I could NEVER commit suicide...I am too chicken of pain. However, even with medication, I can't seem to rid myself of these thoughts. I'm certain there are others out there like me. The thoughts are not pointed toward anyone. They are more like, "...what's the point?" and "...I really don't want to be here anymore"...stuff like that. I don't want to hurt anyone. I'm not mad or vendictive. Just....sad and disappointed with it all.

I've been working since I was 16 years old. My father died when I was young and I've had to work to support myself. I've always seen this as an advantage because it has taught me the value of things at a young age. I have always worked hard and tried to move ahead based on my hard work. However, after years of corporate america I have found that the old glass ceiling still exists for females. It's very sad and I'm really too tired for another fresh start. Most days I go to work, come home, sleep, wake up...the cycle repeats.

This blog will not be a cheery, happy place. It is a place where I can record my dark side and publish the events going on around me as I see them and discuss why I feel that way. Hopefully, it will ultimately be a helpful vehicle for me to discover why it is I have these feelings. Any inpute in appreciated